Life is scary. 
     A few days ago my friend asked me "how life was," and so I told him, "Exhausting, beautiful, surprising, tiring, amazing, astonishing, enlightening, and in no way relaxing, but in every way worth it." He told me that that was truly wonderful. That which had come together with a few words that I had strung effortlessly to give an intellectual and truthful answer meant so much to him. But then I remembered what I had forgotten to tell him: Life is scary. And when I told him this, he became confused. 
     "Why? I mean... I guess it could be.. But why?" He asked.
     So then I so sincerely replied, "Life is scary, and breath-taking, and confusing, and fantastic. But it is so, so scary. I love a kid who lives 2,069 miles away from me. And I will always know that we could never give one another exactly what we need or want. I cannot go to his fencing tournaments on the weekends and cheer him on. I cannot go to his concerts and be there to support him. I cannot go to his house when I am truly upset, and I will never have the comfort of having him wrap his arms around me and tell me everything is going to be okay. And that scares me. How can I love such a person who cannot always be there? How can I ever know that everything will be okay? 
     Also, there are so many other things in life that I want to do, but I am just too scared. It is not the world that limits us, but it is us who limits ourselves and later blames it on the world as we try and compensate for the questions left unanswered. But life is not a question that is mean to be answered, and we all need to realize that. All things will end; John Green once said, "That which comes together will fall apart imperceptibly slowly." (Looking for Alaska p.219) If we all realized that, if we all took time away from either our care-free or our stressful jam-packed lives we would realize that: that which comes together will inevitably fall apart. In that way, life is downright scary. But what we must also realize is that we must embrace what we fear and live the life we wish we had. Because the mystery of what will come, the terrifying unknown, and the rare happiness that all people strive to find; that is what makes life the beautiful thing that it is."
     I thought this was important to share with you, Dream Box. Be careful of how you live, but never be ashamed of how you live your life as long as you are happy. Have a great day, and stay beautiful, Lovelies. 
      Best Wishes, Nat <3
Happy National Alaska Young Day everyone! AKA, my favorite day of the year. :) 
     So, just to jump into everything, the reason why I absolutely love this day is because it makes you think. People explode with quotes from Looking for Alaska like crazy on Twitter and other social media sites, which always makes me happy. But every single quote comes with a different meaning, and another way to look at life, death, the labyrinth, and all the grey area in between. This book is by far my favorite book I've ever read and here's why:
     1) John Green knows how to connect and relate to his audience in such a way that you cannot help but feel as though you're in the book and you get emotional when the characters get emotional, and when they're hurt, you feel hurt, etc.
     2) The characters are so real, and they're just teenagers like you and I, but yet they're more than that. They're not "just teenagers." They're brilliant, and amazing, and smart, and engrossing. They make the book come alive, and in Looking for Alaska, you cannot help but fall in love with Pudge, the Colonel, and - of course - Alaska.
     3) Although Looking for Alaska taught so me much about the people in it and their lives. But more importantly it taught me about myself. I literally quote it everyday of my life. It's taught me so much about the world, and my point of view, and other's points of views, and that's really all that I could ever ask for. John Green once said:
     "Maybe our favorite quotations say more about us than the stories and people we are quoting."
     And I could not agree more. It doesn't matter who we're quoting, it just matters about what it means to us. And I find myself quoting things from Looking for Alaska everyday. When I'm mad, I think "The only way out is to forgive" and "We had to forgive to survive in the labyrinth." When I was sad and frustrated that friend had left, I thought "I hated her for leaving, but I also hated myself. Because if I had been good enough, she wouldn't have wanted to leave." When I was terrified for my mother's life, I just told myself "We are as indestructible as we believe ourselves to be." When I feel stupid and told myself I should have known better, I say "We can't know better until knowing better is useless." When I have  a person that I'll never understand, I remember "You'll never get me, that's the whole point." And these are just the few of many that I can think of off of the top of my head.
     John Green's interpretation of the labyrinth give me hope, and that's all that I need. So today I leave you with one final quote: 

"When adults say, "Teenagers think they are invincible" with that sly, stupid smile on their faces, they don't know how right they are. We need never be hopeless, because we can never be irreparably broken. We think that we are invincible because we are. We cannot be born, and we cannot die. Like all energy, we can only change shapes and sizes and manifestations. They forget that when they're old. They get scared of losing and failing. But that part of us greater tan the sum of our parts cannot begin and cannot end, and so it cannot fail. So I know she forgives me, just as I forgive her. Thomas Edison's last words were: "It's very beautiful over there." I don't know where there is, but I believe it's somewhere, and I hope it's beautiful."